It’s been a few days. I’ve been trying to lie low for the most part. I know they say isolation is horrible for mental health but sometimes you just want to be alone. I don’t use much social media. My mom keeps me up to date on family/friends and what’s going on. Right now, there is apparently a big rift in my family right now over this coronavirus. My brother is known to have strong ideas – just as my mother does, but it’s getting outrageous as they spat over facebook apparently. One constantly fights and bickers on facebook that the coronavirus is nothing but a mild virus not worth the attention it’s getting, and the other is highly concerned about its spread. This is one of the reasons I’m glad I don’t do facebook. Haha.

Long story short, I’m hearing these conversations happen and it makes me upset. Everyone is entitled to their opinions but when human lives are part of the equation, some tact and respect are kind of due. Comments about how it’s *only* killed X out of Y people in the world or x% of the infected. It these comments that really kind of upset me. As if their lives are insignificant, and this “mild” virus is nothing to concern yourself with. I don’t think the families of those affected or those who has died from it would see it quite the same. It’s killing people. It’s disrupting lives. There should be a healthy level of caution towards the virus. I’m not trying to persuade you to a side or a point here – I’m not exactly interested in giving my own perspective beyond saying that lives matter – and we shouldn’t lose sight of that. Take something that is personal to a lot of us and make a statement like that. Imagine someone saying to you “9/11 only killed like 3000 people.” – does that sit well with anyone? A terrorist attack is not a virus, but it took lives and disrupted many more. It was a time we put differences aside and came together as a nation. Why can’t we understand at the end of the day it’s people and their families that are being affected?

In other news. I have to go back to work today – this is my last attempt to be able to handle this. If I don’t make it through the night I will have to quit. I don’t have any other choice at this point. I have to pick the lesser of the two evils. Not having the job means getting *****ed at for being pathetic everyday – but I can hide behind a door and cry with that. I can’t handle a panic attack every moment a phone call comes in at work. I have to face facts here.

Anyway, That’s it.
MarcusAurelius.