So sorry you are still so fixated on this.

I have found that listening to Abraham Hicks videos has really helped me trust that if I start thinking about the things that make me feel good or distracting myself with something that makes me feel good has helped a lot with leaving some of the things that I was fixating on behind.

For example, I said some embarrassing things to someone and when I determined that it was me who was embarrassed because I cared so much what they thought of me--I eventually figured out that it all probably meant very little to them anyways! I wasn't their type. I probably stuck my foot into my mouth because we actually didn't have enough in common to relate completely. They are a lovely person. I am a lovely person. You are a lovely person too Gasplessly! I can relate to feeling awkward about some of the things I have done. Love is so so awkward. He probably doesn't even think about what happened anymore. You CAN get past this. try listening to a lot of Abraham Hicks videos and let me know if it helps. :

Abraham Hicks - How to get out of a funk and start appreciating your life


Abraham Hicks How to let go someone you love