I also don't really have much of a maternal instinct. And for years, I thought I never wanted to have kids. I wanted to just be happily childless and focus on my career and be free to travel whenever and not be tied down and yadda yadda.

Well....missed a few pills, got knocked up.

And I wouldn't trade her for the world.

It's hard to explain the love you have for a child until you feel it yourself. Some days are hard, I mean REALLY hard, but when she gives me a big hug or says "I love you mommy" or just looks at me with those cute big eyes, my heart just melts.

I really want to give my daugther the life I never had. I know, I know...everyone says that. But I really want to have a good relationship with her, and I'm going to try my hardest to make it happen.

As far as wanting another child - well, I just want her to have a little brother or sister to grow up with and play with. I don't want a large family, probably just 2 kids, maybe 3 if there's another oops after that. But I do plan to put the IUD back in after the next one, so the chances of an oops are pretty slim.

I know for other people - especially my siblings and the culture we grew up in...well, it's kind-of expected that you will have a lot of kids. Family is really important to that culture, and most have large families. To them, family is more important than career or other goals. And in the end...in some ways, that can be true.