What's really getting to me is that be controlling my anger and when I dont control it i take out my frustrations on the wrong people and I dont want them suspecting that something's going on and it would add more stress like that. I cant control my anger and when I do i go off swearing or cussing for no reason my husband is like what is wrong with you. I end up making excuses and tell him i'm sorry and were okay the next day. but to a point he say's how much longer he's gonna put up with me. i tell him once that i want to see a professional counsler and he tells me that. i thought you were feeling better. you dont need it and that i'm doing fine. how am i suppose to respond to such a thing like this. i'm sick and tierd of having to pretend or act like nothing is wrong. Somtimes I think about taking my car and drive it off a cliff, or drink as much as I can and pass out, or run away and not to be seen anymore. I cant even realize or who i am anymore.