My anxiety is higher, and I've already had sui thoughts in the past 24 hours. Then you throw in grad school and a job that is in limbo. Which has led to higher anxiety enough where my focus is out the window.

I have already texted a counselor. I feel like the world is closing in on me. keeping me isolated.

I've tried meditation but then my mind wandered too much. I have been up since 5 and it's almost 9. I have a school phone call in 2 hours. and I will hope to hear back from my boss's boss about what to do there.

I'm in limbo. and I hate it!!!! And people expect me to study?! I have so much to do, I"m overwhelmed. I'm trying to take it two assignments at a time but that's not working. I have had thoughts of withdrawing from the term. but I can't do that.

Did I mention I hate HATE being in limbo?