You’re welcome. I think you have very good intentions and you are suffering a lot.
I can’t avoid feeling reflected in your story.
And I know it’s hard. I even had nightmares because I feel out of place in my closed family compared with my two siblings.
From now on I made the decision to behave and took things a little cold-headed because I already did what I had to do to clear things up and make them know how I was feeling. Now, it’s on their part. I’m gonna be as I am and even try to get closer to them if it’s possible but I don’t have responsibility on others actions. I have to think also about myself.
In these cases, when there’s a mother or a father in the story, any confrontation you may role may be worse for you, because the other relatives are gonna tend to see things on the parent’s side because they are older, they have been always the providers, they are not in your place...so, I would ask you to try to be as cold-headed as you can to safe yourself and future relations.
I don’t know if I made sense in your case.