I had been doing great until the coronavirus craze, then had some fits of panic shopping. Today I did NOT attempt to go anywhere except walking around my block.

Store hours are weird, no restaurants, no school (sounds like my daughter's school may attempt an online version of school). H will be teaching his university classes online (though this semester they mostly already are, but I believe he is teaching a summer mini-session they've decided to online as well). At least, he has a job, though I am not sure if he can still do what he fully needs to as director of the university MakerSpace.

As for me...I saw the rheumatologist the first week of March, and I told her I've been beyond tired, though we both knew tons of stuff can contribute, especially all these psych meds. She ran some blood tests, and the parathyroid came back at 129 when the high end cutoff is 64. Pdoc saw the results and decided, that's it, off the lithium and on to Depakote ER plus reducing (maybe in the end eliminating I can't remember), the lamotrigine. I had been on 200 mg 2x/day for almost a decade, and now I am on 100 mg 2x/day. I feel extremely anxious, can't settle into my own skin, just feel off.

I am supposed to see an endocrinologist for the hyperparathyroid because I only took lithium a short while, 6, 9 months. so it could be I've had it awhile; this is just the first time they tested it. However, these days who knows when I'll get in to see the endocrinologist.

Oh, and I did have a week of giving myself Wellbutrin morning and night (only supposed to take 1 pill in the AM)...made me quite manic and drove the car into a light pole. Luckily, the car is driveable, just less pleasing to look at.

Stupid COVID news everywhere. I'm paranoid about it and stores and wanting to stockpile (easy justification for manic shopping). But I'm worried...what if they close the stores? What if Amazon stops shipping?

Pdoc says I'm ultra rapid cycling right now and/or mixed, so sorry if this doesn't make sense.