I've been really struggling the last few days, i feel like i haven't got anhbody i can trust to talk this out with.
I've (22M) been with my girlfriend (24F) whom i love dearly for a little over a year now, she's practically my dream woman but events from her past really bug me because frankly i find them disgusting and unnattractive to me. When i think of her doing these things, i can't help but get upset because they are things that i can't believe she would do. That any rational self respecting person would do... I don't know if i can trust her purely because she has made such poor descisions in her past, and it makes me really uncomfortable to think of her in such a bad light. I have a lot of conflict in my heart because I've really fallen in love with her but after all this time the things she did still bother me, I'm not sure if i should continue dating her for these reasons...
I feel like she has changed since meeting and falling in love with me, but i still don't know how to come to peace with some of the self nullifying things she's done, before i even met her. How do i squash my inner conflict and accept who she was, and who she is now? I really don't know if i can come to peace with some of these things as they go against my beliefs of what i want in a woman. I don't know what to think or how to feel. I want the images in my head to go away...