Hi @Binbonnl,

Yes, feeling cut off from the good emotions would obviously be quite frustrating and quite difficult to deal with, but I think it shows great character on your part that you would like that to change. You're halfway there, in my view. The real you wants to come out.

I think in spite of your sense of negativity and pessimism, just try to let your actions be positive or productive or caring - it can be done. For example, you may feel within yourself like you could care less but do something like mow the lawn, help with the dishes, or even buy your mum a bunch of flowers, things like that. Then, reflect on what it means to others when you do these small things - and from there, I believe the inner emptiness you feel will slowly start being replaced by something better.