Have had a headache most of the day—a dull one, but it’s there. I need to get up and get moving but I just don’t have much energy. I did manage to get to the store and luckily they had the things I needed to get me through for a while. I haven’t called in and quit yet, and the only reason I haven’t is my mom is asking me to hold off because of some rumors they may get shut down because they aren’t enforcing the social distancing rule. She’s angry with me for wanting to quit, but I’m sorry – my mental health should come before a paycheck. I understand I am a burden and a hardship for her, but I can live on water and sandwiches. I don’t care to sacrifice my luxuries of soda, which is the only real thing my mom buys typically for me. I buy groceries too, and have for a while. She uses my car for everything (and hasn’t paid for gas once – not that I’m complaining, she lets me live here. I’m just saying I contribute somewhere) and I do my best to help out I just hate that she acts as if my mental health isn’t important. I guess she doesn’t understand just how bad it is. I’m not sure I want to face how bad it is. Well anyway, I’m ok for now. I don’t go out anywhere and I have enough money to get me through until I get another job. I have car insurance and a phone bill that I pay, and I can sustain that for a few more months. I know I have to work... but I can’t work like this.
I am going to call in again today (I have leniency here, not only because of the coronavirus but due to how their point-system works.. I’m actually OK on points. Right now they aren’t automatically pointing anyone). But if nothing is done by tomorrow morning I’m calling and quitting my job. HR already told me she would accept my resignation if it came to it, so I just need to make a call I guess. We’ll see how it goes.
I think I’m going to go take a shower to see if it helps relax me. Being clean, even if it’s a hassle to do it, makes me feel a little better. I guess that’s a plus.

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