Hello Rose76, I was moved to read your post titled "Thoughts on Being Very Depressed" that you wrote on 3/20/2020. I am sorry you are going through this "I am a mess" thing. I can’t imagine what you must be going through with being unable to move around much. This must be very hard to talk about being similar to Dorian Grey. Thanks for opening up about what it must have felt when having no energy at all. How are you feeling about everything? I want you to know that you do matter and that you do exist. I just discovered that I truly had the symptoms of severe depression all of my life but I didn't notice it until now. I cannot remember when I was neglectful to kitchen duties. I pretty much made a habit of cleaning up the kitchen every time after dinner each night. How can I help you? Tips? Ideas? Regards -- SaraC