I am so sorry you are dealing with this difficult situation Rose. This type of depression can be incredibly daunting.

That said, I have totally been right where you are. More than once. I remember vividly one day in 2007 standing at the bottom of my steep stairwell, needing to get back up to my bed in order to sleep my life away and thinking, just utterly despondent: There is no way in hell I could ever make it up those steps.

Are you taking anything to specifically help with the energy-robbery/massive fatigue aspect of your depression? I have tried Ritalin, Adderall, and Provigil (modafinil). The Ritalin made me dysphoric--it was terrible. But the other two were basically miraculous for me. I have been on one or the other for 12 years now. I prefer the Provigil, personally.

I would strongly urge you to talk to your pdoc abou trying one of these medications. The quality of life improvement can really be just incredible. I hope you look into it.

Does your pdoc know how much you are currently struggling? Do you need an anitdepressant/moood stabilizer/ atypical antipsychotic med change of some sort, do you think?

Sending you strength and support! Don't give up! Just do what you can do. One hour at a time. Don't worry about big goals right now. Just do what you can. The dishes will get done when they get done. Try not to judge yourself--you are doing the best you can. But that said, I really do believe they would get done a lot sooner were you on Adderall or Provigil. That's just been my own experience as a patient with similar symptoms to yours.