Hello Christmas cookie, I was touched to really read your post again titled "Feeling unsure and valuable" that you wrote on 3/19/2020. I can see how that would be difficult to be coming from a past of abusive background. My heart hurts for you when you bottled up emotions as if they were unimportant. Thank you for sharing with me about your life's challenges. I want to make sure I understand is that you are terrified/afraid of rejection? Is there anything else you want to share that made you scared of rejection? I wanted to share that I also experienced severe rejections myself from couple family members. I was greatly impressed that you are a "warrior" in your battles. I am here for you. How can I help you? What do you need right now? I'm happy to listen any time. Warmly comforts. ---SaraC