Oh man, Just a horrible day yesterday. Still dealing with this URI and just not feeling physically well at all. It's just weird. Have had a headache for, like, a week. I never get headaches. I never get sick. It's bizarre how rotten I feel. No fever, no difficulty breathing, so, I just don't think it's a COVID situation. But I will pay attention, as anything is possible, of course.

Still, forced myself out of the house for a few minutes. Was nearly 70 F here yesterday and very sunny. Just gorgeous. Cherry blossoms are still out here, so that was cheerful.

And yet, the entire thing was completely ruined by the fact that I felt I was being followed and surveiled by mutiple people the entire brief and very miserable trip. Been through this before. I have a PhD in it, as a matter of fact. So very disappointing to be dealing with this again.

Been quite psychotic on and off, mostly on, I would suggest, for weeks, as most of you know. I'm used to it, I guess. But I don't enjoy it, that's for sure.

So, maybe tomorrow will be better. I sure hope so. Pdoc is totally aware. If things don't turn around pretty soon, we'll have to make another move. Maybe Clozaril. Not really sure. Already been on Risperdal, Zyprexa, Abilify, Seroquel, Thorazine, and Geodon, the last, very briefly. I suppose there are one or two other atypicals to possibly try, but really, I've been on so many of them, it seems a bit like beating a dead horse. But we shall see.

Okay, that's my rant. Sorry. Sending peace and love to all. I am so grateful for all of you!!!! I could not do this without all of you!!!