I will maybe ask later to delete the thread

My dad is currently fighting against the covid (worst scenario) and the doctors don't know if he's going to make it

I've lost balance and people in the last thre years and i've been stupid and not enough careful in relationships
I was scarred and often unable to talk, unavailable
I feel tired and I think I was in a nightmare. I stayed in bed. Unemployed, alone and sleeping. I really wish I could go back and handle it better. But i was paralyzed and it happened

Now it's getting worst

I hope you can make better
Be correct, be respectful and kind if you can