At work we had a virtual "social" party where everyone got on a virtual video call. I felt like the only person in the room who was depressed over our global situation and over being locked up at home. Everyone else was totally chipper, making jokes and laughing, except for me. As for me, I feel mildly depressed. The only thing I could offer was talking a challenge I face at home, and I sounded depressed while talking about it to all of them. I regretted even opening my mouth afterwards.

It made me feel really separated and alone because of my depression and mental health issues. It also made me feel down on myself for having them in the first place, like I just don't measure up to the normal people. I am apart and separate. Like why couldn't I also be chipper, lively and making jokes like everyone else was? It bothered me. And I realized last night, that I have always felt apart and separate, ever since I was a young child.

I am sure many here can relate to this feeling. Anyone else feel this way too?