sorry i know this is a stupid post and it's more for me than anybody else...just telling myself...

nope, i don't suck, i poured away can two, fought the urge for hours to go buy more, realized what an idiot i was being and keep reminding myself of the first time i went ice-skating...kept falling on my ***, kept getting back up and trying again...didn't make me feel like a failure that i kept falling on my butt, made me feel like a tryer coz i kept getting back up!

so just reminding myself...not a failure for one slip...just gotta stay up now that i'm back up.