My best friend told me that I'm too kind and that I'm a good listener. I know it's to make up for when I was younger and was a total...witch. I still have a lot of guilt over that. Even though I'm not very emotional, I have a strong nurturing instinct and I do fall for a sob story. I prefer strong, well established men as romantic interests, but I do spend a lot of time with those down and out and try to be helpful. My problem is I know what I like, but I tend to settle for who wants me. 60 hours now!
But, this came over the wire. I read it, but did not respond. 60 hours!
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And you arent even hearing my cries for help anymore ....
I feel youve moved on. ....now.
And if i do die. You'll just move on. Like i never existed.
Or you'll use me to gain some sympathy from others. Empathy. And Youll use me like a traumatic experience. .... And youll go out telling people i was crazy. And youll be telling them the things i did. And youll be slandering me ...
But they wont know of the hurt i went through with you.
Everyone thinks that im the only one hurting you. The truth is you hurt me too at times. And you probably dont care or even realize but alice. Im in so much pain right now.
Im in so much pain right now.
I cant handle you doing this to me.
Pretending i dont exist .... Pretending that i havent been staying up all nighy for the past couple of years. Waiting. Like a good man. Boy. Whatever you wanna call me..
Youre just crushing my heart now.
You know ive been through a lot. And.. You know i dont wanna even be here without you. And
I feel youve moved on. And you dont care that im crying here every **** single night. I feel so stupid now.
I feel used
Youre **** hurting me now alice.
This is **** up.
Like. Really messed up of you....... The things you did too. That make me freak out. Like
You know i need someone good. You know i need someone faithful and GOOD. i never get any chances and i never get any attention. And i always get rejected.
Yet you always get the attention. I used to feel you used me for attention. Now im feeling that coming back all over again .
Its not okay. You needed to calm down.
You needed to see that i have very little.
Only you as a friend. And you have plenty of others so im not even important. Meanwhile im iver here and youre my entire world. 😥
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Why do you break my heart like that?
I know youre an "alpha female" "bully in school" type
But i thought you changed. I thought you were better than that.
I thought we had something. REALLY. LIKE WE HAVE SOMETHING WTF.
ALICE IM NOT OKAY. IM NOT OKAY. IM NOT OKAH. IM NOT OKAY. IM NOT OKAY. IM NOT OKAY.
HELP ME
HELP ME. HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME. HELP. ME. HELP ME. HELP. ME. HELP ME. HELP. ME.
COME SAVE ME. COME. SAVE. ME.
COME SAVE ME ! COME ! SAVE ! ME ! COME ! SAVE ! ME !
COME ! SAVE ! ME !
DONT. GO. DONT. GO. DONT. GO. DONT. GO. DONT ! GO ! DON'T ! GO ! DONT. GO. !!
I dont know whether to be mad or sad at you
If you really knew me. Youd know my mind travels at a thousand miles per minute when i am going to bed. Only you made that all go away. So alice thats kinda why im not okay right now. You know what i feel. You know how i am. You know i gave it all up for you.
Im upset with you right now.
A true girlfriend would not act like this.
I want real love with you.
Look
(Insert multiple explicit pictures)
I give you love like this
And this is how you repay me?
Like i do this so you can get off too
(Insert dozens of explicit pictures)
(Insert about 200 more sexually explicit and sexually demanding texts)
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Heyy
Talk to me !!!!
Youre really starting to upset me even more now !!
I cant really believe you are ignoring me
You said you cared about me so much.
I havent had a drink since that day
I might as well start drinking again
Ive been staying sober for me and you...
Is there even a point anymore if you act like you dont care about me ?
I know im depressed and drinking is a depressant but i dont know what else to do anymore.
You dont even love me anymore
Im ***** HURT ALICE.
YOURE STARTING TO ACT LIKE AN A HOLE TO ME
Like what did i do ? What did i do to deserve all this??
I might even just lose it again.
I have myself under control but god you make me freak the *** out now
Im freaking out over you. And you DONT care.
I just smash this **** stupid phone alice.
I just wanna smash this stupid **** phone.
Cause you make me so angry now.
Wow
WOW alice. WOW
(Add another 200 texts)
I dont know what ill do to myself if you ever leave me again.
Like im only here to be with you.
Youre my reason for being. Living.
I was wanting to hurt myself again
Dont You know? That ?
Like the only person who shows me love... Is starting to hurt me
I dont want to make you regret losing me is all.
Im sorry. That was dumb of me to say but i just rather be dead than alone and single
Thats been a big issue in my life...
If i never find anyone worth living for. Im just gonna off myself cause i failed my only goal in life.
I've been searching all my life for you.
And you were right in front of me this whole time.
I hate how i act when you put of aside
(throw in 200 more texts)
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