I saw Regular T on Saturday. We met in person, though she offered to do phone sessions going forward because of Coronavirus. I said I would let her know about the next session but to plan on in person for now and then we will see how the virus is doing in two weeks. It was lovely to see her. She talked about how she had talked to my case manager/care coordinator. I asked how that was and she said it went really well and proceeded to tell me what she had told the case manager/care coordinator. She told her that I have a lot of support, that I am getting better, and that I scared the bejeebes out of myself when I was hospitalized. She said that she and the case manager/care coordinator were on the same page regarding my care.


We talked about the paranoia and delusions that were coming up for me. I've been having much more paranoia and delusions lately than I normally have. Regular T said she thought it was because I am working in a much more emotionally safe workplace now with lots of feedback which is helping me feel safe enough to deal with some of these other things that are coming up in my life. Unfortunately they are coming out as paranoia and delusions because I still don't feel safe enough to have these feelings towards my parents--probably doesn't help that I live with them! But I thought it was good that she thought my workplace was more emotionally healthy. I think it is too. I just hadn't stopped to think about it.


We talked about my self destructive tendencies a little. We talked a lot about a delusion I have about bad seeping in through my skin. She suggested some lady that does some sort of magnet work. She is going to text me the lady's info. I'm not entirely sure what she does, but my T said that she did some work with her a while back, in September, and she felt so much more clear and uplifted afterwards. She said she's not woo woo though it may sound like she is. But that she is actually helpful. She said that might help with the feeling that the bad collects in me.


We had a good session overall. We talked about the Coronavirus and how it is limiting daily activities and how to survive this time without going crazy. She also said that she thinks I am a very sane person.


It was lovely to see her. We scheduled for two weeks.

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HUGS Kit.