Thanks for sharing so much, Sara. You had a lot to deal with from very early in life. I'm glad you found a spouse who knew to get you to some professional mental health care. A supportive partner can make an enormous difference.

Maybe you're learning, as I have, that managing a chronic problem with depression takes effort on the part of the depressed person. An antidepressant can be valuable as an aid, but it's all about doing what should be done, even though you don't feel like it. Thar's why I get alarmed when I see myself vegetating and neglecting things I'm responsible for. That just snowballs into worsening misery.

My biggest problem, when I fall into the pit, is getting started on anything - like the dishes, or the mail. I feel like I'm never going to be interested in anything again. Starting those dishes was like trying to role a boulder uphill. I know it will get easier. But it can take me a long time to talk myself into starting. I need to shorten that time.

I hope today's a decent day for you.