Trout, I feel your pain, although my situation (which is no where as desperate as yours) I do feel your pain. I too am here because I have no one that I can talk to about my soon to be life altering situation....the hardest thing I've done is "try" to repair issues with a husband, that I do love (inspite of everything!) and he absolutely REFUSES to talk to me about our problems! You can't fix anything without communication, right? Well, I just thought after reading your post that I would say....if you have no one to "talk" to and maybe just need an "ear"....I have big ones! (Just kidding) but seriously, if you feel like talking to someone who would listen and commiserate with you....I'm your gal! I love to laugh, have fun and just enjoy life but with a husband who is a chronic "very sneaky" alcoholic (that he thinks I'm too stupid to realize, I guess so he hides it everywhere) and now I find out he's been smoking DOPE (which he knows that I HATE!)….his attitude well, I'm sure you can imagine so I won't go into it on here but it's BAD! I would love to chat if you would ever want too. I just went back and saw the date on your post so maybe by now you are in a better place. I sure hope for your sake that you are! Take care and if you want to let me know we could do a phone conversation....Take care and hoping for you to have found a terrific life like I know you deserve!!! Carol