"When you are sitting in a therapist’s office, there is a certain indescribable connection that happens. It’s a mutual sharing of subtle personal, emotional and behavioral cues and expressions. Back-and-forth, the therapist and client read each other’s reactions to things. When two people are physically in the same room, there is an energy that passes between them. There is a rich, complex subtext to every sentence. There is a meaning to every subtle twitch of the corner of the mouth or eyebrow; a slight shift in position, a tremor of the foot. There is a feeling of understanding and a connection; a joining of the minds, a linking of thought, feeling and behavior that is largely unconscious, but which can be almost tangible. It’s a synergy that is difficult to put into words but which, I think, is very useful to the healing process."

I saved this passage from an articled I read a few years ago. It holds true for me even now. Video sessions lose the connection I had with him. I do not believe actual real therapy is happening through video. He is and other therapist claim you can do EMDR through video. Sorry that would never work for me. Of course i am not going to give up talking to him once a week as that would be foolish but the stress of not being with him in person is making everything else feel worse.

I had mine today. It was incredibly uncomfortable and distracting. My cat was giving me an evil look the whole time. I’d rather not do therapy at all.