I'm really struggling with being physically away from L. It's not fair that my family has me as their main emotional support and gets to physically be with me, and I can't physically be with my main emotional support.

L is trying her best to help me through this. We actually had to have an extra phone session on Saturday. Since, she's been emailing me daily, reminding me of truths (i.e. She's there, she's not leaving me, and we're in this together). It has been helpful. Every day I wait for that email which proves she's there.

In other news, I've been working hard to not emotionally eat and stay on my diet. However, my doctor wants me to quit smoking in 5 weeks (when I see her next) due to medication issues and the virus. It's going to be so hard not having any of my "bad" coping skills during these uncertain times.

And I'm still hoping that I can see L on our anniversary (April 9th), but it's not looking so good