I've always questioned my purpose...from the time I was really little. Like what is my purpose in this world? For the longest time I tried to be everything everyone else wanted me to be...but I was never happy being what they wanted me to be. With my dad being Catholic, he always wanted me to fit into their little description of what a good person was to be...but I never felt it in my heart. And mom always said as long I didn't worship Satan I was free to believe in anything I wanted.

I was always extremely close to nature, saw it as many different aspects...many different entities so to speak. I guess that's why I've become what I am today. But still there are questions.

Sometimes I think I should be this or that...but always questioning...and nothing ever having an answer. I have a strong need to help others. I always have. But yet a big part of me is a keeper of knowledge, truth, and justice. I think maybe I should be more involved...but without a teacher it can be hard.

So I keep searching...the endless search for me...for what I am truly meant for....maybe I'll never know my purpose but I would love for someone to just tell me! It would be so much easier!!!!