So my treatment team wanted me to see the psychiatrist at the clinic for an 'evaluation' to deem rather or not medication was necessary. I had seen him 2 years ago for depression but quickly became non-complaint and ditched him. I was on Prozac which didn't work and coming off of it gave me an hallucination where demons grabbed me.

Fast forward two years, I'm back in his office because my treatment team just wants me to see him so he can just determine if he thinks I could benefit from meds. I'm starting to think that wasn't the real intention.

The appointment was rather short and he just asked me questions like about school and how my mood was to which I replied "indifferent". He quickly came back to the idea of trying to give me more anti-depressants and wanted me to do a genetic test to see the best medication matches, there, at that moment. His receptionist was getting the test ready and everything. At the end I was starting to panic a bit because I felt pressured to do it now even though I didn't want to.

I don't trust the genetic test. My dad hates those things. Says once they have one of us, they have information on the whole family and can use it in investigations and sell it.

I honestly just don't trust the psychiatrist in general. It's not him specifically, he's a pretty nice guy actually except for the fact that he's very fast paced but I just don't trust the psychiatry aspect in general.

Who knows what the real intentions are with those drugs and whats in them. After all, they did make me have an hallucination which was pretty intense. To me that proves the point that they aren't healthy. When it comes to psychiatry I just have that instinctive panic feeling that there's a double meaning under.

On top of all of this, I don't think I have significant mental health problems right now. They keep trying to insist I'm depressed but I don't feel depressed so therefore I don't think I need anti-depressants. It makes sense to me but they're not convinced.

Any input?