Here's a little nudge of encouragement. Remind yourself why recovery is important to you and how treatment can help you get there. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to know that you're valued. You deserve to be able to get the support and care that you need to be successful.

It sounds like you have a provider that is willing to work with you. Don't let your anxiety about the "what ifs" and the stress of actually facing your issues be a reason to fall out of care. It's easy to fall into that pattern, which in the end only sustains all the negative things that got us there.

Hang in there. You can do this!