Hello christmas cookie, I was very happy to read your response. Family and friends are often the ones who let us down. It seems that when a life crisis comes to our lives, then comes the real test if they are truly kind or not. It's real and it's scary because I believe that neither of us likes to be abandoned. I had to turn to self-help books to seek answers for my issues, eventually time passes and the level of acceptance on how life truly is, alone and self reliance. I am riding in the same life-saving boat as you are in the biggest ocean full of people like our families and friends who really don't care but themselves too much. I have decided to take a new hobby like nature photography to keep myself busy. Warm wishes, SaraC