ur the same as me i was abused when i was 8 for 2 years, i didnt tell as he sayed he,d kill the family. I blocked it out my mind till my son turned 8 then all these emotions came i started self harming depression and i will not let my husband touch me. It to a dam lot of courage to tell my counciller about it them my family, just to find out he also abused my brother, so this made me worse WHY DIDNT I TELL! the perv is now dead i have looked for his grave but cant find it i just want to crumble it likre he has done to my soul. I feel so disgusting letting him do this even though i was a kid i still some how blame myself.