Had a dysphoric nihilistic existential pantheistic mental breakdown about the paradox and everything in my head. I talked to my sister in the car on the way back.


I was so dysphoric that I was like a black hole, sucking all the positive energy out of everyone that tried to reassure me good things.


Then I took 1g of phenibut. Feeling better. I have over a years worth left so I'm not worried about running out. It can be the only thing that helps with all of my mental symptoms sometimes.


I talked to job and a few people online, my sister and my mom. They've all said different things that are helping me.


I was almost suicidal but I knew it would pass.. Kind of mostly...