Hey guys....
Well I saw the T again today and ..... still not sure.

She was better at not using the computer this time, which I was sooooo glad about, but she was just not the right personality for me. Im so confused.
I also saw the Psyciatrist for meds before seing her and have to say I LOVED her. She was so cool and really got me from the minute I walked in there. WHY can't we see the psyciatrist for help? I don't understand this new system of T's every week or so and the psychiatrist only every few months? Can anyone enlighten me on that one?

Anyway, I am there because of extreme anxiety/panic, agoraphobia, and depression. She seems to want to focus solely on this supposed anger that I have in my life. That is the whole reason I am anxious she says....I dunno.
One more thing....I explained to her about my verbally and mentally abusive husband. No support, no love, blah blah. She keeps giving him the benefit of the doubt and saying that I chose to marry him and the whole reason was to focus on this anger issue. "So lets focus on that right now!". "What a great opportunity you have!" Great? He's an ***hole lady, jeez.
So, that's where I am. Obviously screwed up and confused as ever, except now I have the meds, Thank God!!!
Should I feel awkward about calling up and changing T's? This is really a nervous situation for me. What if I run into her? What if I get a T that is a friend of hers? Ugghhh!!! HELP.