Feeling out-of-sorts tonight. Can't stop listening to the same CD. Gonna have dinner soon. Nothing from the liver book because we don't HAVE any fresh fruit or veggies or lentils or whatever else is in the diet. I think I'm just upset because I'm going to die. Like I said before, what's worse- dying in control of it or without control? I'm headed for death earlier than I should be and maybe if I get this virus a LOT earlier than I'd like. I have asthma and a bad liver. Some guy across the street from my mom has stomach cancer and isn't going out of his house at all. I didn't sleep in or take a nap today so at least I'm doing SOMETHING right. Question is, is it enough? I thought I did nothing on disability before, but now I'm REALLY doing nothing and its wearing on me.