Understand and feel the same.I choose not to go with meds,and is really hard work..I know I can beat these demons and they've had hold most of my life.My turn to take the reigns.It is really hard and the one consolation at the mo that I find is that it changes,nothing stays the same.It's down to how much sleep we get too is a big factor Im finding.Hang in there,you're not alone.luck.