You're not crazy, AngelGirl. I do the same thing, too. In fact, a couple of days ago, my middle son told me that I had told him he was dead to me almost three years ago. I have NO recollection of saying anything so horribly painful to him! He didn't know about how intense my depression was at the time, but thankfully, he's forgiven me.

I've gone back and reread my journal and posts here and wondered where the heck my head was at the time I wrote some things, too. I think even most "normal" people do the same thing.

BTW, I won't consider myself "crazy" until I've been certified and commited to an institution for the rest of my life. I don't forsee that happening.