Hi,it's hard work isn't it.I was reading the answers here and wonder if someone up there has a point about rapid cycling,my understanding which may be wrong is rapid cycling is having the overall cycle often,... as in ...episodes every so many weeks or months and she/he said about mixed cycling,which to my understanding is what you're.going through.I may be wrong on that though.I am not diagnosed yet as a rapid cycler but am having episodes every 6 wks or so and the last one definately went through the all over the show up down everywhere.I think Im going through the change of life too....what friggen joys does life throw at us to conquer.But that I will.I don't take meds,and had my first pysychologist consult the other day and had a manic episode while seeing her and then that day covered every bloody emotion under the sun.ARGHHHH all the best