Thank you all, for your replies - today, I plan to get back into painting and do some exercise bill3, thank you for the link WovenGalaxy, thank you for your lovely optimism,it means a lot to me. 1claire, thank you for your ideas, I'll try them
Resurgram, thank you for your supportive encouragement, I'll try reading and hoping the memories will soon not hurt so much.
Be safe everyone