I'm kinda wondering if Rexulti makes me hypomanic at higher doses... I mean, I started hearing and seeing things last night for the first time in a long while since bumping my dose back up to 4mg, and it took a while for me to realize that they were just hallucinations. (I was talking to someone about my experience last night, and they helped me ground myself.) For example, I saw a blurry figure standing in front of my bed and I heard a loud BANG in my left ear. (For some reason, whenever I hallucinate people, they are very blurry. I can see the color of their shirt, pants, skin, etc., but they are unrecognizable because the face is completely blurred out. They almost look faceless...?) I wasn't seeing or hearing things when I was on 3mg, nor was I feeling hyper. But since the 4mg dose has kicked in, things have been getting weirder and weirder.

I have the sudden urge to buy lots of things, to start new projects, etc.. My sleep is fine (albeit with quite a few awakenings in the middle of the night), so it's confusing. But sometimes I will get normal amounts of sleep and still spend like $3000 to $4000 a month on random crap that I don't need. Then I lose my filter and start saying things that I regret. I also start accepting more responsibilities at work and such, when I really don't have the time, energy, or patience to do that.

I'm just trying to recognize patterns. I think I might've been hypomanic when on 4mg in the past because I'm starting to see a history of expensive credit card bills, etc.. It was MONTHS of $3000-4000 bills. I don't have that kind of money. My rent is $1700 a month, plus like $300 a month in utilities and internet. So basically $2000 a month for my apartment alone... and when you add that up with my credit card bill, that's $5000-6000 of money spent in one month, every month, for several months in a row! Yet I was getting a normal amount of sleep the entire time.