im used to my dark mood, voices, stress...etc and i usually cope by just writing and crafts, even when it go far it's ok so i never went to psychiatrist
but just recently few days ago i just hit suddenly extremely high level, it has gone physical not just feeling or inside my brain.
i was thinking maybe anemia because i noticed my wrinkled nail which should be sign for anemia?
but i'm also very stressed especially now with virus, if anyone remembers or check my life updates i was waiting to finish university to start focusing on art and doing lots of activities, so i did finish last year but didnt start yet now with the virus again i stopped and waiting though now i dont even know for how long
and because im religious i feel like end of world soon.
of course im also worried about my family and relatives not just that

i feel nauseous, weak, stomach pain and even one day was having horrible headache and fainting, shaking sometimes, feeling that i will die and panic even more. i would never but im collapsing and my body falling apart.

i try to play engaging games since they distract me but they aren't always enough and i cant play 24 hours.

i would go to psychiatrist and doctor but its not safe nowadays and i cant just get whatever drugs from pharmacy i hope my body doesnt stop suddenly from all this physical stress