Last night all this Covid - 19 chaos finally hit me. The anxiety was extreme as I decided who I will and won’t be seeing as my country looks like it’s about to go into lockdown. It is difficult as I usually spit my time between home, my partners, and my parents. My partner and I adore each other but cannot live together full time. He has mental illness too so we can trigger each other. My parents have been my main support through a horror ten years with 35 hospitalisations so it is great for my mental health to stay over their place once a week. My T doesn’t want me self isolating alone. I have decided to isolate from my sister and kids so the only people I would see would be my parents and partner.

But ... I don’t want to be responsible for infecting my parents. Australians have been told that this situation could go on for many months. So I freaked out last night trying to work out what to do and grieving being separated from my sister and kids. I felt so ill.

Today I feel better and plan to talk my options through with my T and pdoc next week. Things aren’t as bad here as they are in the US but I know it could get worse quickly. I just video called my sister and a couple of her kids. It helped. Now I won’t be leaving the house for four days. Resting and studying.