Hello, it’s interesting quite a few of us seem to feel this way. I wish I had a clear answer but after 4 years I still don’t really know what I feel. I don’t think I understood how stuck I was until I started trying to ‘move’ my life around and had to deal with consequences. Like trial after trial. I seem to learn something about my feelings when I make changes or different things happen. I have no idea who I am still though, what I want to do etc.

I feel like my therapist also expects more from me sometimes......like he’s waiting for me to ‘wake up’ or be angry or whatever....they are only human and they too project on to us and make mistakes. Keep going, you sound like you are well and truly on your way to healing. I don’t know if this helps any but thank you for sharing your experience 🙂