Thank you, everyone, for your thoughts and kind words.

winter4me, I have been working hard to try to build a healthy community at work--bringing in tea, telling people how much I appreciate them, delivering coffee to the RNs and CNAs, even arranging for one of the psychiatrists to hold a weekly process group for us. I've also been trying to take care of myself, meditating daily and trying my best to get in fresh air and exercise, though this is a challenge given that I feel like I am especially high risk to be a pre-symptomatic shedder of virus and do not want to be outside/around people if I can help it.

I sent my T this email:
Dear [T],

I felt angry and disappointed after our session yesterday. I did hear you say that this situation is horrific and that there is bound to be unavoidable suffering. I appreciate that your intent in highlighting the ways that I add to my own suffering is to draw attention to modifiable factors of my mind and experience so that I can address those factors and suffer less.

However, I’m doing work that I find scary and difficult in the midst of a global disaster. All want, all I think I can tolerate right now, is reassurance and a safe place to process. Can we talk about how to find a balance between containment and growth that is acceptable to both of us?

Thanks for considering,
[c]