Just being around people never worked for me in a state of suicidality. I needed those who had more compassion and training. Being inpatient is needed sometimes.

In this case if on a scale of 1-10, 10 being I'm going to take action about these negative thoughts. And 7 being it's been on my mind but I have a plan. 5 being some where in the middle. And 1 rejecting the suicidal thought(s). If you are above an 8, don't take a chance, go in and be evaluated by the emergency department. It will keep you safe, and that is priority number one!

Some of my darkest days where I longed for suicide, have become brighter days of I was able to make a difference in another patient's life or the life of a staff member. I know I was there for safety, but I feel more safe there than a few places on the outside.

Please do what's best for you. And keep us informed.