There were definitely times when I was quite aware that my therapist and/or my pdoc were highly concerned about my well-being. I suppose I knew they were "worried" although I didn't really think of it in that term; I really thought of it as very concerned which is more of a professional assessment I guess.

I don't know that I wanted that or even liked that. Generally if I was that unwell, my mind was really not in a good place, and I wouldn't "want" to be in that place. So, no, I never wanted to be so unwell that it rose to that level of concern. It happened though, and it wasn't a pleasant place to be -- not because of their concern, but because of my unwellness.