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Originally Posted by bpcyclist
It's just so hard to get these things dialed in exactly right. Could be that you are just overshooting a tad, as Christina mentioned. Or, maybe Wild Coyote is right--maybe your search will take you elsewhere...
That said, what you describe, to me, it sounds very suggestive of hypo. Very. It's just so insidious, as you know. The fact that you are picking up on this now is awesome, in my opinion. That kind of insight can really save you. Maybe that is happening right now.
Love the idea of writing a little journal type-deal down about the spending. Could really help you watch that closely and prevent a disaster. I have a buddy who went fro hypo to manic unnoticed by anyone. He was pretty wealthy. He leased a jet and flew to Hilton Head on a lark. Bought a $700K sailboat once he arrived, then, got into a fight with the Hilton Head police. Huge mess. All without talking to his not very happy wife, who called me at 3 AM one night to tell me all this, sobbing. Nuf said.
I think sleep is the most fickle part of my illness. I never know what to expect. So, the fact that it is not currently a problem for you would not, for me, anyway, be very reassuring. Never, ever know which way my sleep is going to go. FWIW
Sending you support! Really good that you are aware of what is happening with you right now.
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Thanks, bpcyclist.
I have read posts on Reddit of some people's manias, and they are scary. For example, one guy said he booked a flight to Hawaii at the last minute, had sex with a flight attendant in his hotel room, and then went to a casino and blew all his money. I have no idea if that's true, but I don't think I am at risk for that (fortunately). I am too much of a nervous hermit to fly somewhere on my own, and I don't want to gamble at Encore in Boston Harbor (the closest casino to me). Honestly, I am not a gambler and was never interested in it. I have been to Foxwoods before, though, and that's how I knew gambling wasn't my thing.
I just don't know what to do. Obviously sleep isn't going to fix this issue if I'm already getting an adequate amount. But at the same time, I think I may need a medication change, or at least my lamictal boosted up back to 400mg again.
