I feel like this sounds awful, but I keep thinking of how differently I'd have experienced this if it had been during the time when I was living by myself and single and childless. I wouldn't have had to put so much energy into being there for someone else. Right now, I feel I'm exerting so much energy into being there for my D, plus doing work, that I don't have much time left for anything else. If it had been just me, then I could have engaged in all sorts of things. Tonight I thought I might do an online Paint Nite or Trivia Night, but stuff going on with my D kept me from doing either of those things.


I do have the guinea pigs as something else to focus on. I suppose I feel that I have less time for things now that this is going on, as opposed to more. And much less time to myself. Which is all a struggle, being an introvert.