I have a girlfriend for 2.5 years now. I love her. I am very happy with her. We're planning our life together. Trying to have a baby. But for a long time (even before her) I was using some social networks and would chat with girls (most of the time anonymously) and told them how pretty they are, how hot and sexy they are (most of the time they were girls who posted some hot photos, some even nude ones). And even tho I would NEVER be with them or even have sex with them (and even if I dont really think they are pretty, but just "loose") I would tell them all of those things. If they would ask me for my name, I would lie. If they would ask me for my photo or personal instagram, facebook or such, I would STOP all communication with them.

My GF found out and was very very hurt. Even tho she saw that I would decline giving my real info, and would stop convo if I feel like they are getting personal. And she looks at it as a cheating. She's hurt. She dont trust me anymore. And she's thinking of breaking up with me. I promised to stop. All of those. To stop and to never do it again. And I would do anything not to lose her...

The biggest question for me is.... WHY I have to do this? That's what troubles me... Usually I'm a completely nice, well-bread, gentleman... Every person I meet things so greatly of me... And then I need to humiliate myself and talk to some girls that are posting sexy photos, who are like some kind of "starlets" and here I have a perfect, loving, caring, BEAUTIFUL girl... Now she's having low self esteem because she has 4-5 kg overweight ( which I dont mind. I still think she's beautiful, hot and she makes me want her with all her body) and they are like "models"... Can anybody help me?