Mmm. Well, for one, as far as I am aware, there is nothing about me that could possibly be of the slightest interest to any large organization. I have no important information. I do not break the law. I was never in intelligence. Not in the middle of a divorce or business breakup. So, on it's face, it makes no sense whatsoever. I am just not a very interesting person.

Second, there is a ton of security in this building. Everything is recorded--every single entry and exit. Everything is on video. There is no way some kind of big operation like this could happen without property owner support and they would never do that without multiple warrants/court orders/etc. And there is zero basis for any legit judge.court to approve such orders, as I abide by all laws.

Third, I have both bipolar 1 with a lot of psychotic features, esp. lately, and PTSD. I was, in fact, horrifically mistreated by law enforcement long ago. That did actually occur. I have some of it on tape at my attorney's office, just so you know. But there is no question that those years badly damaged my brain. My threat assessment system is completely broken.No question about this.

So, I know all these things. And they are somewhat helpful to be aware of. But I am still struggling despite that insight.

Not sure about that symbolism piece. I am operating at a more literal, concrete, fear-based point of mind in all this.