So, today, Dr. T said to me, regarding being stuck at home with D (who can be a challenge under normal circumstances, though I love her dearly of course), "I would really hate to be in your situation." Me (kinda laughing through tears): "So my therapist is basically saying to me, 'It sucks to be you'"? And he basically agreed. He also said that he didn't think he could do any better as a parent to my D than I was doing right now, and he later said that I was doing a great job, even if she wasn't responding well to all of it. And those things meant a lot. And seemed really genuine. As I was just saying to someone, the fact that Dr. T is so straight with me about things, good or bad, makes me more likely to believe the positive things.

I just feel exhausted from session because I basically sobbed for much of it. But I also feel lighter in a way, though, that I got all of that out, the frustration and fears and sadness. And it's different getting it out with someone else witnessing it (albeit via a computer screen) and validating it, than me, say, just sobbing in the shower, alone. Still, I kinda want a nap now...