Hiya Johnny. I know what is feels like to be on the receiving end of endless criticisms from family. They may very much love and care for each other but the way they do it may seem painful to the point where you feel singled out. I understand your not wanting to hang out, but consider meeting up as an alternative to introspection. Like practice keeping your cool while someone that you may care for does something that you can not stand. My grandmom tells me I do this wrong and doesn't tell me when I am doing something that others may view as taboo or cynical. So I remain focused on the positive and address the negatives as discreetly as possible- if at all. But consider these are things you've had to think about before going out. Be prepared for the negativity that might be there and be prepared to leave it behind. Consider exploring some of your other interest on other online communities like this one or through another creative outlet. You might be surprised how many others feel the way you do. And. btw, I think your focus in STEM is great but consider adding more art to your professional life too.