hi poet and welcome!

i'm sorry you're dealing with so much and have in your life. seeing so much pain and grief...not to mention dealing with it can cause depression. is there anyone that you can talk with? are you in school...school counselor? can you get to a therapist to talk out these feelings and see if meds might be needed to help you to get back on track?

i sure hope so. keep us posted. i'm sending peaceful wishes your way. i'm glad you found us too