Thanks everyone. I feel like I am kind of in a crisis or something. It isn't like this happened overnight. I have been disconnected...and have desperately been trying to get reconnected and spent 2019 trying to do that. I guess I failed. Now I am not faring well because of lack of resources.

It isn't just a matter of having a volunteer deliver groceries or sneaking out for a late evening walk. It is more about...this is not working for me on any level.

I feel like I am having a sort of slow breakdown so talking with all of you helped. Thanks so much.